The deeper into your twenties you get the more you worry about how some dreams may never come true. Your metabolism decreases and you get fatter and with each kilo you pile on you begin to wonder if gravity is the only thing that's slowing you down?
Everyone around you is getting married, having their second child and you're wading through the day. You begin to wonder where you're headed and figure d the first solution out. To me this meant online dating! Yea my life had come to this, what I hoped would never happen to me.
I get introduced to Bachelor number 24, he doesn't look like my type but since my type isn't showing up I decide to lower expectations and give it a shot. It gets better, he seems nice. It's like he knows what I'm thinking and he know exactly what to say.
After having ditched a rather clingy man, the space that long-distance provides seems refreshing. You doubt everything. You begin to wonder if he's the frog who will soon be the prince. You hope you pray you wait.
Wait until you get the chance to meet. Then you realise he ain't coming all this way. So a a woman of this age you decide it's okay to pick up your bags and meet half way in a country far far away. You wonder if this is safe. What if he's a creep? A serial killer or rapist? You dismiss telling yourself you are overthinking.
He seems nice. You share laughs and giggles. But you begin to wonder if all that space is a bad sign.
He takes a long weekend trip. Doesn't text you. Or call you. You wanna be cool. But you miss him.
You snoop around on social media. He said he ain't on Instagram but you find a long unused profile. You look around. You notice a stray comment of a whiny girl complaining she's cropped out. You make nothing of it. You stop. You pray. You surrender it I to the hands of God.
He's back. He sends you pics. There are pretty kangaroos and sharks and loads of other awesome things. You're glad he's back! But that stray comment keeps picking at you. Each time you lay down and have your thoughts to yourself, you wanna stop them completely so you visit Instagram, see his profile spot that comment and click on the whiny woman's profile, only to see the exact same pictures there.
He calls you that night, tells you he missed you and wants to hold you close! You wanna question but you don't wanna know. Because you already do.
You decide to let it go with utmost grace and walk away while you're not yet broken. You try. You pray. And God himself intervenes with strength enough to walk a away. A step at a time.
There's nothing else to do other ten embrace failure. Be thankful that's it's over before it even began.
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